About to take SN

lululoo

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I'm a family member of this girl and yes it was successful but I can tell you how it feels it feels horrible for everybody who is Left Behind it feels absolutely Unthinkable for her mother and her brothers and sister and her dad and her stepdad and her aunts and uncles and cousins it is heartbreaking is devastating it is the worst pain you could ever ever imagine. For all of those out there feeling like this is the only way think about all the people you are leaving behind the people who would do anything and everything to make it better for you. so instead of encouraging these people to feel like this is the only way out how about let's encourage them to get help and to know that there are other ways.
People on this forum actually do encourage each other to try to exhaust all avenues to improve their lives if it seems like they haven’t. If your family member had shared more of her story I’m sure that would have happened with her. However, people also provide support for those set on suicide who are out of options. It is nice to have that support. I for one have no chance of improvement so it is such a relief to have a place where people don’t tell me to keep trying. This place isn’t all bad, despite what it seems. I’m sorry for your pain.

By the way, not all of us have people who would care that much if we died.
 

hamednova

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Apr 22, 2019
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Here are two recent posts by two users who took SN. It gives insight into what it feels like. Hope this helps.


Plenty of attempts with sodium nitrite nano2 15gm are incomplete. In fact, this might be the first public sn death that was posted on social media. It won't be the last.
 

Alchemist

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Apr 3, 2019
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I'm a family member of this girl and yes it was successful but I can tell you how it feels it feels horrible for everybody who is Left Behind it feels absolutely Unthinkable for her mother and her brothers and sister and her dad and her stepdad and her aunts and uncles and cousins it is heartbreaking is devastating it is the worst pain you could ever ever imagine. For all of those out there feeling like this is the only way think about all the people you are leaving behind the people who would do anything and everything to make it better for you. so instead of encouraging these people to feel like this is the only way out how about let's encourage them to get help and to know that there are other ways.
Sorry for your loss, but this is the cause of thinking that make us look for safe spaces like this. The pain you have will disappear with time, but for us is a daily struggle and we are in pain each and every day. No one is entitled to our presence and we have no obligation to live for other and suffer in their stead. We had no choice about coming to this world, so at least we want to have the right to choose to leave.
 

hamednova

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Apr 22, 2019
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I like how her mother redirected the blame on the website, instead of the looking at what lead to the suffering at first place. There is huge amount of pain before someone even look for site like this. Sounds like narcissist to me.
Aw man, kinda mean. Also you tossed away ANY chance of us getting to know how she died, the most important puzzle piece. Better then nothing i guess.
I wish Philip Nitschke{exit international} would stop skirting around sn and tell us how it feels to the public. Only he knows hows it feels to take 15gm of sn.
 
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Halo13

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Plenty of attempts with sodium nitrite nano2 15gm are incomplete. In fact, this might be the first public sn death that was posted on social media. It won't be the last.
You were interested to know what it felt like. I provided links to a thread in which one of the users succeeded using only SN. The user detailed how it felt - as did the other user who did not succeed both after the ingestion of SN. This provides two experienced, recent accounts of the feeling of SN on this forum.

Nowhere did I mention social media platforms as I was simply trying to help answer your question. Sorry for any confusion.
The fact that her family "exposed" this site to the public eye is kinda worrying. I prefer SS to stay "under the radar" as long as possible. It will be bad if SS become more "popular" after this.
I agree 110%. Really strange seeing usernames I recognize on the screenshots.
 
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sunny.sativa

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Apr 2, 2019
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This thread explains the details of the "Goodbye" ban and how it works:


What lead up to this is that this past Sunday a member named Sunny Sativa posted a thread (which she later deleted) in which she vented about a few things that occur on the forum, including people who start a "goodbye" thread but then keep posting on it after their stated date of suicide had come and gone or who post multiple goodbye threads.

If I recall correctly, she wondered outloud about the possibility of banning people who do this to keep them honest and subsequently Serge thought about it and wound up implementing this ban on users after they post a goodbye thread.

Like I said, that's how I remember things happening because I also posted on her thread with a complaint about asking people to stop saying "ctb" or "catch the bus" because I thought it was a juvenile way of avoiding the raw reality of suicide and turned it into just another common thing to chit-chat about on an internet discussion forum. The thread turned into a big confrontational mess pretty quickly as various people offered their thoughts about the ban idea and my suggestion about not using "ctb" anymore and Sunny wound up deleting it. So I may have helped add some impetus to this goodbye ban even though I never directly said anything about it, pro or con. If I'm inaccurate in how I've recounted events transpiring I'm certainly open to correction.
This is about how I remember it.
 
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Marquis

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Jan 3, 2019
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I'm a family member of this girl and yes it was successful but I can tell you how it feels it feels horrible for everybody who is Left Behind it feels absolutely Unthinkable for her mother and her brothers and sister and her dad and her stepdad and her aunts and uncles and cousins it is heartbreaking is devastating it is the worst pain you could ever ever imagine. For all of those out there feeling like this is the only way think about all the people you are leaving behind the people who would do anything and everything to make it better for you. so instead of encouraging these people to feel like this is the only way out how about let's encourage them to get help and to know that there are other ways. And the worst part of it it she had to find this post and that people were encouraging her daughter to take her life instead of helping her. Completely undoing everything her family had been doing.
I'm very sorry for your loss.

I want to make one thing very clear here: Noone was encouraging her to take her life here. This isn't a pro-suicide forum, it's a pro-choice one, meaning either way we will support your decision.
 

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